Thank you all ever so much for your lovely comments, its a great comfort to read them, youre right the car can be fixed, it was just one of those days when I looked at the damage and simply couldn't believe it on top of everything else. I can completely sympathise for those who would feel they couldn't be with a loved one when the pass on, my biggest fear was the fear of the unknown of what dying actually involved, I know that sounds silly but I always thought it was an awful process, but like the nurse said to be its not the dying its the leading upto it thats the distressing part, when someone dies its usually very calming and peaceful, which when I was told was a great comfort and helped me be there when the time came.
I really appreciate everyones comments.
Tim.