wattsie.... honestly..... its EXACTLY this type of life upheaval that will force the "drive", like i said in my OP, your drive may lead through thoughts of happiness, sadness or downright sorrow, BUT.... theirs something therapeutic about the process... almost kinda healing.... really sorry to hear about the GF buddy, relationships SUCK, but it guess it just wasnt meant to be huh??
o a side note... is their any chance of a reconciliation or is this completely out of the question???